Why us?

Often, I think... Why did God choose us to be parents to Owen? I often wonder why God trusted us with a child that has so many needs. Sometimes I ask God why he let Owen have so many medical conditions. Sometimes I even get mad about it.. Especially when he underwent a spinal tap at 8 weeks old. That was my worst moment. I was all the way at the end of the Lebonheur emergency hallway and could still hear my little boy screaming (they made us leave). Nick and I both wiped away the tears in our eyes and walked back in there to hold his hand while they did his IV and I wondered why God let those things happen to him. He was in so much pain. And then minutes later, he was fast asleep in my arms and I remembered that God has a special plan for us and especially for Owen. After all that we have been through, I am thankful that God chose Nick and I to be Owen's parents. Owen has changed our lives. He has made our love stronger, our faith stronger, our lives better, our days shorter, and most of all, he has been an extreme blessing to us. When I feel like God isn't around because he "let" these things happen to Owen, I have to remember that Owen could have been born with worse things, or not born at all. I am thankful for my sweet baby every day. So next time you wonder, "Why me?", remember that God does have a special plan for you!

Deuteronomy 31:6

New International Version (NIV)

⁶ Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”